Sunday, July 28, 2013

And...My FIRST EVER Portrait!

Once again, I'm new to this whole drawing thing...I am thanking Patrick (the hubs, ESTJ) for being my sweet subject. :)  This is on sandy-colored drawing paper...

My FIRST EVER Sketch! A Unicorn For Me, an INFP

Okay, this was my first attempt at sketching.  ANYTHING.  So please be nice. :) 

I have been reading a lot on my Myers-Briggs personality type, INFP.  On one search, I saw the "animal" associated with the INFP personality type...a unicorn :), because we can sometimes be so caught up in our inner fantasy world (AKA, our "reality" of sorts), people perceive us as almost mystical.  And I'm proud of that. 

I knew I had to draw it the minute I saw it.  I gave it to my husband as a symbol of me, the person he loves on my good days and bad, when I'm in the clouds and when my feet planted right next to his. :)

Friday, July 12, 2013

Columbus Liked Change Too

I'm feeling a little light on motivation in regard to finding a vocation I can exercise my creativity more. But I can't quite pinpoint the reason for this uncharacteristic lack of motivation. As you might have read in my last post, I feel like I'm always wanting some type of change in my life, because without change, well life just seems flat.

Which brings me to this analogy I thought of...
Most of us know the Christopher Columbus story, albeit partly a myth--but to summarize the story:  Chris sailed the ocean blue in 1492 to prove the earth was round (not flat) and that's when he 'discovered' America for the Europeans. It took courage and an adventurous spirit to go on such an ominous voyage without really knowing what was out there. The payoff was huge--um, earth=rOund (so many NEW possibilities!); unknown territory=later known to be America (again, so many NEW and exciting possibilities!).

My point is, if we don't get out there and challenge ourselves through change and discovery, life will always seem flat.  And I believe change opens our minds and helps us deal with the unexpected better than if we stay with what we know--a ball can bounce back from anything way better inflated (round) than flat. You can see my extraverted intuition is in full swing today like a true INFP...which means I still haven't figured out my lack of incentive for the job search process. But it's okay because life is still beautiful!!

How do you feel about change? Is it something you welcome or do you shy away from 'different'? I would love to hear your thoughts. Until next time...


Wednesday, July 3, 2013

"Always starting over....but somehow I always know where to begin." -Jim James

"Always starting over....but somehow I always know where to begin." -Jim James

Ah...Those words elicit so many feelings in me when I hear listen to experience the song Where to Begin by My Morning Jacket. I tend to find myself 'starting over' in many parts of my life for reasons I haven't figured out. Starting over is exciting and scary, yet there is a sense of comfort in knowing where to begin again.

I believe we are all working toward a common goal in this life--to get some sort of understanding of it in our own way. And to maybe have some fun while figuring it out. I have tried (what seems like) innumerable times to find an occupation (the word "career" is a little stifling for me) that makes me feel alive. I'm not there yet and that's okay.

I have tried a taste of the corporate world (mouthwash is still not washing out that sour taste!), recreation--you know, we work so you can play...well it was hard for me to work when everyone is was playing!, and now I'm working in fitness as a Health Fitness Specialist, which is a fancy name that means I train and teach group exercise classes to people.

It has just been recently that I'm realizing I need some sort of creative outlet. Writing workout plans isn't cutting it. Not that I'm not into helping people, I just feel I can help people more if I'm passionate about what I'm doing. Maybe music is my outlet...

The essence of me is my walk with God. And love. And music. The introspection it takes to create such poetry, like Where to Begin, is nothing short of courageous. And finding the sounds to match the feel of the words is much like matching a glove to a know when it fits. You just know.

And I will continue to start over until it fits.

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